so the hsc is in 3 weeks and i..am running of srsly low motivation right now. i made a plan on what to do, but every time i get down to doing it, i become bored/distracted because of no motivation as I recieved bad marks in trials and think "no amount of studying will ever get me a good mark, so whats the point?" then i hate myself for being lazy bcoz i really want to do well and get atleast band 5s in all subs but i just can't. On top of all this, i graduate tomorrow and am battling conflicting feelings(sadness, frustration and happiness). i know the hsc is supposed to be relatively "easier" than the trials as its spaced out and you've already had a practice run, but my memory is so bad i've forgotten almost everything i learnt for trials. plus this, everyone is buzzing over unis after getting back early entry offers from good unis like macquarie, usyd, unsw etc and i feel like i can't ever reach that standard and am panicking over if i can even get into a uni at all. everyone else seems so cool and composed over the hsc, and no one in my grade grinds half as hard as i do before exams, but still manage to score excellent marks while I can only manage average or substandard results.