iloveeggs
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usually i'm not one to talk about my feelings like this because i hate getting pity or being labelled emo but i need to tell someone even if you guys are strangers so here goes.
this year i have just been feeling numb, extremely sad and completely smooth brained at the same time. i have been through a lot previously and i have been able to get soldier through it but somehow i cant seem to get out of this cycle and its been 5 months. i am constantly stressed and anxious and can't sleep properly or form logical thoughts or enjoy anything. i am not in danger at all (if yk what i mean) but im just tired. i can't get through anything in my day without being exhausted and don't have the motivation to do anything. ive checked for other medical conditions to see if the tiredness is smth else but it isn't.
my parents work very hard for me and im in a very good place in life compared to where i was a while ago but its just that everything is horrible at the same time. im very lonely while also having many people to talk to, its just that anyone i have opened up to doesn't seem to care anymore. i have always been very successful academically and in terms of extracurriculars but after this first bit of y11 i flopped really hard (im extremely average if not below average in all my subjects and this has really never been a problem for me before, i covered all the info in my mods this term in tuition or over the holidays so i was familiar with the content in school and still flopped). i used to really love to sing, but for the past few months i can't bring myself to do it and it just feels like a burden. i just feel like im such a negative person to be around and i make everyone's lives really horrible.
i sometimes feel okay and sort of happy but then it gets bad again and im starting to contemplate just giving up. i can't do anything drastic like dropping subjects/tuition atp, my school and parents likely wont support me and some part of me wants to keep grinding in school. i just want to be normal again i dont want to be like this
sorry if that all didnt make much sense, idrk what i want to get out of this thread.
this year i have just been feeling numb, extremely sad and completely smooth brained at the same time. i have been through a lot previously and i have been able to get soldier through it but somehow i cant seem to get out of this cycle and its been 5 months. i am constantly stressed and anxious and can't sleep properly or form logical thoughts or enjoy anything. i am not in danger at all (if yk what i mean) but im just tired. i can't get through anything in my day without being exhausted and don't have the motivation to do anything. ive checked for other medical conditions to see if the tiredness is smth else but it isn't.
my parents work very hard for me and im in a very good place in life compared to where i was a while ago but its just that everything is horrible at the same time. im very lonely while also having many people to talk to, its just that anyone i have opened up to doesn't seem to care anymore. i have always been very successful academically and in terms of extracurriculars but after this first bit of y11 i flopped really hard (im extremely average if not below average in all my subjects and this has really never been a problem for me before, i covered all the info in my mods this term in tuition or over the holidays so i was familiar with the content in school and still flopped). i used to really love to sing, but for the past few months i can't bring myself to do it and it just feels like a burden. i just feel like im such a negative person to be around and i make everyone's lives really horrible.
i sometimes feel okay and sort of happy but then it gets bad again and im starting to contemplate just giving up. i can't do anything drastic like dropping subjects/tuition atp, my school and parents likely wont support me and some part of me wants to keep grinding in school. i just want to be normal again i dont want to be like this
sorry if that all didnt make much sense, idrk what i want to get out of this thread.