Proof that anyone can do anything literally right now. (2 Viewers)

[Socialism]

Do you watch the Lex Fridman podcast?

lmao

 

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Challenge:
Intentions have been the death of myself, and whenever I think about giving up, I feel like crying.

I feel this way not because of the act of giving up, but because entertaining the idea of putting an end to my intentions gives makes me feel normal again, like the whole show is over and I can just live my life normally.

Greatness has become a dogma for me over the years, and after understanding that what I truly yearn for is goodness, all I care about now are the things that matter more to me than me.

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I declare on this day, that I will attempt to let go of everything and try to be a normal person for the next year, zero intentions and just go with the flow in submission to an existence which I earn a sense of immersion and belonging to in.

Now with uni just around the corner, I will also have the best set of circumstances to have the lifestyle that will demand me to become normal again, for that is the intensity of the flow that I will allow myself to go with.

Plans for the future? None. But, instead of comparing myself to where I want to be on an abstract time scale that matters very little for what’s actually happening to me in life right now, all I can say that for the next year, I AM a student, and what I will be next is that I will be nothing more than who I am. The best label I can give the essence of that truest true self, is an observer, but no words can do it justice, you just got to be it yourself at least once in your life, which thankfully although it has become unfamiliar to me it is something I have a history with.

Well that was fuking lie.
I will only strive for greatness and my flow that I go with will be my own.

 

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Here’s what I’m going to do:
Go back to college and complete the advanced diploma I failed, and at the same time build portfolio works from now in order to start looking for work in the video games industry.

If I don’t find work by the end of this year, then next year I’ll enrol into the new program from the college since I last left that allows me to study for another year and a half to get a bachelor’s degree.

I will continue to do the same thing until I get a job, and if I get a job offer during my studies then I’ll drop out or switch to part time since having a degree to my name with little commitment (since I’ve already done a fair amount of years for it to be worth it) would be a cool addition.

Once I get a job, I will simultaneously in the same way that I am practicing 3D animation to contribute to my portfolio works as the ‘selling point’ of these smaller side projects/games that I intend to publish to steam, as well as repurpose these practiced skills to build an audience online in anticipation of the dream game I’m doing all of this for that will likely take many years to complete, I will be passively signing up to other degrees for entirely different courses for interests I have despite being committed to the career I am pursuing, because learning for the sake of learning instead of only having my plans for the future to decide what it is I study is what I like the most.

I would study things like biochemistry, ICT, economics, engineering, physics, astrophysics, neuroscience, etc, and then repurpose these understandings and self-studied but license/degree acquired/achieved practices over the course of 6-10 years part time to my full time work on my dream game, to then at long last make the things I sincerely dreamed of and still dream about on this forum.

SAO, immortality, and having a lifelong adventure of chasing the higher world I belong to while saving this one simultaneously.
These are the things I will do while I strive to become as capable and achieved as my Ideal self.

 

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Okay, I'm going to be updating my 3D animation progress here: https://boredofstudies.org/threads/...us-without-losing-my-mind.405234/post-7683544

 

[Tony Stark]

I recommend watching the following content creators, it is where I learned most of what I know about Blender.

Joey Carlino

I create things (mostly Blender tutorials) Born and raised on earth, Joey enjoys locomotion and consumption. Follow this link to see what else I have going on: https://joeycarlino.com

www.youtube.com

BlenderVitals

All your vital blender information packed into short, straight to the point, and simple videos. Check me out on all platforms: https://linktr.ee/BlenderVitals

www.youtube.com

WiseFrog

Welcome to WiseFrog 🐸 — your shortcut to mastering Blender! I create fast, practical, and powerful Blender tutorials focused on tips, secrets, and smart modeling techniques. Whether you're a beginner or experienced, my short videos are designed to level up your skills fast. I specialize in...

www.youtube.com

 

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I recommend watching the following content creators, it is where I learned most of what I know about Blender.

Joey Carlino

I create things (mostly Blender tutorials) Born and raised on earth, Joey enjoys locomotion and consumption. Follow this link to see what else I have going on: https://joeycarlino.com

www.youtube.com

BlenderVitals

All your vital blender information packed into short, straight to the point, and simple videos. Check me out on all platforms: https://linktr.ee/BlenderVitals

www.youtube.com

WiseFrog

Welcome to WiseFrog 🐸 — your shortcut to mastering Blender! I create fast, practical, and powerful Blender tutorials focused on tips, secrets, and smart modeling techniques. Whether you're a beginner or experienced, my short videos are designed to level up your skills fast. I specialize in...

www.youtube.com

Thanks, I think I'll be ready for video tutorials outside of following the manual in hopefully a week from now, but we'll see.

 

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My new daily schedule:
- Wake up early and do yoga
- Work on 3D animations outside of my bedroom until the tv is occupied because it’s too noisy to work outside of it.
- Go to room and continue work.
- Stop working at 6PM (must)

 

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I feel I should give an update of the things I did while I was away:
- tried to diagnose the issue with my neck after injuring it. Originally suspected to be the Adam’s Apple, then the hydroid bone, and then after going to my GP was incorrectly told it was psychological, then went to a chiropractor and was confirmed to have insane levels of tension from an unknown injury. I then studied the anatomy of the muscles, nerves, and other stuff and I think that it may be to do with the posterior belly of the digastric muscle; whatever the case may be, it isn’t life threatening so I’m just waiting to make the money and time to go to a specialist on my own.
- I got a vitamin d shot because I was severely deficient despite my consistent supplementation.
- I have been following a strict beauty routine for my skin and hair after learning many things, and what I have come to having being the best routine currently is:
Day:
Wash face with cloth
Niacinamide Serum - wait 30 seconds to 2 minutes for absorbing
Vitamin c - wait 1-2 minutes for absorption
Vitamin e - wait 10-20 minutes for absorbtion
Sunscreen - every 2 hours even indoors

Prebreakfast:
- Ginger, honey tea (best used as a preworkout when intending to workout intensely, an inhibitor of fat loss due to breaking a fast, so take before intense workout for strength benefits at least. Alternatively, if fat loss is the goal swap around this with the Tumik and Neem within schedule.)

Workout for an hour doing yoga for posture and mobility and then eat breakfast with:
- 2 vitamin D/K tablets
- 3 Saw palmetto with pumpkin seed oil tablets
- 1 iron tablet
- 1 copper tablet

Wait till noon and eat lunch with:
- Tumrik and neem (separation in times of due to tumrik affecting iron absorption)
- include calcium through diet like milk or cheese.

All meals must ONLY (apart from cheese in a single meal of the day) include any of the following ingredients:

• fish
• eggs
• rice
• steak
• lamb
• organ meats
• fruit for snacks

Thursday Nights only:
wash face with cloth
Niacinamide Serum - wait 30 seconds to 2 minutes for absorbing
0.1% Retinol - wait 30 minutes or less for absorption
Vitamin e - leave in over night
Homemade hair serum no retinol on scalp

Monday Night Only:

Wash face with cloth
BHA 10 minutes and immediately wash off
Niacinamide Serum
Homemade hair serum no retinol on scalp

Regular nights:
Wash face with cloth
NiacinamideSerum
Vitamin E
Homemade hair serum no retinol on scalp

So far I’ve managed to clear up my skin a bit, but after it started pealing from chemical burns as expected from the retinol, and I got sick recently, I got neglectful.
I plan to look my best for next year’s anime convention inspired by male Rover from WuWa (Wuthering Waves). These all help deal with acne scar removal, de-tanning, glassy skin, and general wrinkles for skin.
For hair I just every morning put in “Scalpy hair ampoule - Seapuri” after shampooing, and at night put in that homemade hair serum (I don’t know exactly what’s in it since my mum is the one who makes it, but I think there’s coconut oil, caster oil, and other stuff that are good for hair since she did most of this research her self for years before I decided to catch up to her in knowing the science behind it). Also, I needle my scalp twice a week.

- I’ve also been working on the design of my dream game every day, but now I have a new objective for the sake of this game being a success in the future, that being getting a job in industry to learn on the job on how to make my own large scale game ‘perfectly’, as well as make some money while I develop it with people I find in industry who are interested to join me if they’re interested to do so in their free time so that way I and we don’t have to wait till the game’s completion just to see a profit; i.e. starving artists can’t starve forever.

 

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When trying to do work or studies that are outside of what I would typically do on a break BEFORE having a break (meaning I work in the morning rather than at night after a day of bludging), I feel very sleepy.

I’m going to see what happens to me if I do things slowly but without breaks during what should from now on be regular work hours until I have my body clock’s energy be in alignment with an actual schedule.

I suspect it to take 3 days at a very slow pace.
Working out and yoga counts as fitting within the responsibilities I have to do before taking a break.

 

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What I did today:
- Yoga for 30 mins
- Watching blender 4.5LTS beginner tutorials
- Had a call with the college to disappointingly find out that I was too late to redo the units I failed and will have to do them next year instead to enroll into, so I've at least got complete free time to continue to focus on my portfolio - hopefully will be able to get a job before college, and then use the work experience I get to skip the need for an advanced diploma to then get access to the bachelor's degree I wish to get so that way I can qualify as a post-grad student for any potential future studies of interest since from experience with uni earlier this year, being undergraduate with my college experience after high school is WAY too slow of a start for anything.
- Played Metaphor Re Fantasia

 

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In the worst case scenario, which will be the case when it comes to studying mathematics PhD program at MIT, where I will have to study full time for multiple years on-campus instead of online, here is a possible time management solution that I could use to juggle having my career/fulltime-job with bigger schooling commitment simultaneously:

• Wake up at 5AM.
• Morning ritual is to workout, prepare notes for school, and do 2 hours of work from home after a very early breakfast.
• Go to school and attend lectures and classes
• Between each class, go to the library to focus on school work
• After school, prepare your “part 2 of the day ritual” while you simultaneously make your way to ‘go to work’ at a local cafe or something, and take on the same approach as how Korean students have after school tutoring, with the only difference being the atmosphere of a special occasion vibe comes not from being around people in the same situation, but from turning work into an extracurricular, relaxing activity, where I get to multitask and distract myself by playing, watching, reading, checking notifications, at the same time I do my work for another 3-6 hours in the day (most of the time working will be done between classes anyways if I’m ahead with my assignments and my effective note preparations in the early morning, but I’ll have to be perfectly consistent with this).
• Then go back home at 11:30PM sharp and fall asleep immediately on bad days (depending on assignments), and wake up at 6AM the next day instead and cutting back on an hour of work.
• Otherwise, on good days I can leave to go home at 7-8PM, and spend the rest of my day, after a quick shower first, entertaining myself and catching up with people over messages or calls, and then before I sleep after eating my dinner first I’ll digest while either watching a few episodes of anime or an hour of gaming, and then sleep at around 10PM.

On weekends, I’ll focus on my schooling as the full time gig and my career as part time, though I’ll do the full 8 hours each (worth) of any extra work by my own initiative on both Saturday and Sunday.
And I will do this for 4-5 years.

Goals:

• enroll into this course at MIT and move to America to do so in 2028
• The job I have to get for my career before then sometime in 2026, has to be both remote, and will probably be indie instead of AAA though I’ll definitely join an indie studio founded by people with AAA experience.

Otherwise, if I can make a living making my own studio from the get go, then the deadlines are flexible and that would be the dream, which is why I’m even looking for a career just so I can get the work experience, budget, and network to make my own studio and games successful.

Best case scenario goals:

• Create a popular 3D animation YT channel and make a successful single player game on my own that gives me the budget to establish my own studio afterwards (needing at least $1M, probably with the help of a crowdfunding as well, just as would be the case for this initial project that I’m working on right now anyways, which will also be used for portfolio so the employee route is also an option simultaneously.), and do so by mid-2027.
• Create a portfolio that can have me accepted into MIT’s mathematics PHD program, which will need both my money to afford the expensive fees through my video game being a success or working in industry for a year under someone else, and self studying all things math and applied maths such as engineering, physics, computer science and simulations in my game projects, data science for history research questions I have to do my own publication on (whether it be a research paper or whole ass book), and any other interests I may have that can get me more likely to get a letter of offer after a successful interview with these to my name in ample amount of time with a focus on mathematics.

Edit: the work I do to get accepted into a post graduate masters in mathematics degree course program position, without actually having relevant industry experience or a bachelor’s degree from another study or having any history of being employed anywhere apart from having my own successful video game studio starting from indie, is if my relevant experience comes from solving real world problems that are at the level of graduate certificate competency, which the faculty of the department will have the insight to judge the significance of my experience I present to them with the specific problems I solved and how and why.
So, I’ve got to aim for some math projects, and preferably ones that can also benefit my games as I test things out to explore their interconnectedness for the fun of it.
Doing things like making a physics engine from scratch, data sciences for computer science instead of history, and economic models for my business in a practical not just a theoretical sense (though I’ll need to expand operations heavily in order for the theory to apply in this real world example), are my best bets at unifying the two fields.

 

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I literally cannot imagine myself doing anything else in the future. Not only is it the only thing that makes sense to me in life, it’s what I was born to do.

So, my entire existence and purpose is riding on my success with my video games.

 

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I can dream now, and not only that, but so many things that used to be common sense to me are coming back to me too, such as how when I do something I wouldn’t expect myself to do, I actually feel put off by it, or when I think things and do things as a force of habit, I end up noticing it immediately and doing so just feels ‘wrong’, and it’s very easy to stop these habits that possessed me so much now because I am more present than those things.

People will look back and wonder, “what was the exact moment that the world changed?”, and I say, it’s the exact moment that I changed.
I wrote my initial thoughts on my change at 1:12AM today immediately after a bunch of things that were changing in my experience one after another had begun to slow down enough to be able to write about it on my profile page:

https://boredofstudies.org/members/blank.1611363613/

 

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WiseFrog

Welcome to WiseFrog 🐸 — your shortcut to mastering Blender! I create fast, practical, and powerful Blender tutorials focused on tips, secrets, and smart modeling techniques. Whether you're a beginner or experienced, my short videos are designed to level up your skills fast. I specialize in...

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I LOVE WISE FROG, he totally saved my DT major work since I was making a blender animation of my prototype

 

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I haven't been giving much proof that anything is possible, just making more promises I've yet to keep.
Starting tomorrow (since it's late at night right now), I'm going to begin another 'marathon' just as when this thread began, but of a different kind.
I'm going to do something so big (using blender), that everyone watching will feel involved, as well as their futures.

 

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Terrible sleep last night lead me to researching Egyptology and proof checking some verses in my high school Bible, so tomorrow I’ll do the marathon instead.
Edit: Oh yeah, I won’t be able to tomorrow either since I’ll be out. Day after I guess.

 

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History has been a major distraction for me within the context of knowing what skills I should prioritise to master first after having regained immersion, but now I know what persona/goal I’ll have for the next year to play around with.
I’ll try to become the world’s “computer guy”, meaning I know modern technology inside and out down to AI neural network levels, but I’ll be starting with the game I’m working on as my means of exploring this. Part of what it takes to become “the computer guy” is by first becoming “the video game guy”, since there are natural evolutions to a person’s persona within the physical world, regardless of what spirit or reason that drives the same and unchanging goal.