So I did my Trials and I handed in my major projects. I thought I'd take a bit of time off just to recoup. I got my Trials marks back and... I wasn't entirely satisfied. Some of them were good, yes.
ANC. HIST.: 81% (okay)
DRAMA: 67% (not happy)
ENG. ADV.: 68% (really not happy with this)
ENG. EXT. 1.: 64% (also not happy)
GEN. MATHS: 58% (my buffer, but still)
HIST. EXT.: 76% (meh)
SEN. SCIENCE: 83% (good, equal 1st in class)
I know two of them are good and one of them's pretty decent, but my Gen. Maths, Drama, and both English subjects... well. I know the main reason I lost so many marks is because I can't write fast enough and so I couldn't put in enough detail. I know I need to fix it, too, but there's only a month until exams so I don't know if I have the time.
I'm supposed to have done some practice essays, too, but I keep having mental blocks and I just can't do them. As with studying in general... I just can't bring myself to care. I've completely lost my motivation for doing the HSC; even the thought of getting a good enough ATAR for UNSW isn't enough. After all this time, and with my marks generally being so consistently disappointing as well as the fact that there's no way I'll get an ATAR above 70, I've pretty much just given up. If studying for the Trials couldn't save me, then why the Hell will it save me for the HSC? What's the point?
I just wish I knew what to do. Maybe I do have a bit of motivation in there, but I just can't work up the energy to care anymore. Any tips?
ANC. HIST.: 81% (okay)
DRAMA: 67% (not happy)
ENG. ADV.: 68% (really not happy with this)
ENG. EXT. 1.: 64% (also not happy)
GEN. MATHS: 58% (my buffer, but still)
HIST. EXT.: 76% (meh)
SEN. SCIENCE: 83% (good, equal 1st in class)
I know two of them are good and one of them's pretty decent, but my Gen. Maths, Drama, and both English subjects... well. I know the main reason I lost so many marks is because I can't write fast enough and so I couldn't put in enough detail. I know I need to fix it, too, but there's only a month until exams so I don't know if I have the time.
I'm supposed to have done some practice essays, too, but I keep having mental blocks and I just can't do them. As with studying in general... I just can't bring myself to care. I've completely lost my motivation for doing the HSC; even the thought of getting a good enough ATAR for UNSW isn't enough. After all this time, and with my marks generally being so consistently disappointing as well as the fact that there's no way I'll get an ATAR above 70, I've pretty much just given up. If studying for the Trials couldn't save me, then why the Hell will it save me for the HSC? What's the point?
I just wish I knew what to do. Maybe I do have a bit of motivation in there, but I just can't work up the energy to care anymore. Any tips?