ahhh the emotional response. ...I used to be like you yulia, but...stuff happened. lol. er I wouldn't rely on American intepretations of the situation.yulia said:I haven't read anything else anyone says...and I'm just going to say my personal view and how I formed it.
When I think of China and the way everything is, I feel deep sadness. I feel horror, I feel disguist, and I fear for what's to come.
When I think of China, I think of the country my grandparents run away from. I see the spreading communism that forced my own parents to flee here.
I see the death of the Panchen lama because of the Chinese government. I see the first child political prisoner because of the Chinese.
But I think all this really means is I despise the Chinese government. Not the Chinese society as a whole, but the government.
Basically, while I am Chinese, I'm also a Buddhist, and I guess I've been brought up more as a Tibetan Buddhist than anything else. And it saddens me to see the way the Tibetan people have been treated, the incredible pain that has been inflicted on them because of the Chinese (the mother who had to cut off her fingers to feed her children after Tibet was taken over is just one of the things...).
I fear the fact that the Chinese are holding the Panchen lama, an innocent child hostage purely for their hatred of the Dalai Lama and his beliefs. I fear for his safety, we don't even know if he's still alive. And I fear for the future of Buddhism itself, without the Panchen Lama, what happens when the Dalai Lama dies?
I see the struggle the monk I sponsor went through as he fled Tibet through the Himalayas for his own safety.
I see the destruction the Chinese are carrying out on their country, on ancient monuments, with no regard of the history they are destroying.
Maybe I am biased by a lot of things, and I've seen Seven Years in Tibet too many times, but it was a true story...while one side of me sees "yeah cool cheap shopping" when I really think about it...I'm just saddened.
But when my brother confronted one of his less strict teachers in China, she likened it to what we did to our own country, and what we did to the indigenous people of Australia. And while this is true, and there's nothing I can say that can justify anything white people did to the indigenous people, the fact they are still carrying out such ignorance and inflicting torture the way they do in the modern era disguists and saddens me...
I feel like nothing I'm saying is making sense and I can't get out the words to explain what I feel and think, I just think it's all rather fucked up and a lot of the time what I feel is a sense of doom.
um Phanatical isn't that taking it just a tad far....Mao was a dictator and he did terrible stuff, he was responsible for the Cultural Revolution...which directly affected both my parents. so if any one has a grievance it should be them, and the many millions of others that suffered under his regime. But if they can look past it and see the good that Mao, OK so not Mao as much as Deng and the younger generation, did for the living standards and development of the nation, why can't you (general comment, not addressing yulia in particular)?