MrTammoth
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So on the last day of school i received my devastating chemistry, mathematics and maths ext1 results. It was literally that bad that i wanted to kill myself. I completely went depressed and ignore everyone around me even my friends. I've never had such poor marks in my life. It had to be during the HSC where everything goes down hill T_T.
Chemistry: 32/75 not sure what even happened. Probs just dumb as fuck and can't handle chem. Oh forgot to mention ranked 20/25 (i laughed because i failed). I was utterly terrified because i haven't ranked that low since year 7. I used to be ranked 8th.
Mathematics: 39/70 not sure wtf happened here. Ranked 38/68. So pathetic because the funny thing is i ranked top 10 last year but no that shit doesn't count of course. This just had to hit when HSC starts.
Maths ext1: BAHAHAHA dis not even gud. 31%. ferk lyfe bro. Used to rank top 10 out of 30 people. Guess what my rank is now? 27/30
It's so sad how my teachers thought i was smart as. They had so much faith in me. Even my mum thought i was doing good after parent teacher interviews. Haven't even told her my results. Once school reports come out ohhhhh man i'm soooooo dead.
Funny thing is after the last day of school i was a bloody maniac. I even went up to the head maths teacher and said if you did bad in your half yearlies am i able to rectify my marks?
Teacher replies "Nope, never seen anyone do it and you probably won't be able to cope with 3 unit maths. You should consider dropping 3 unit maths"
It's the holidays, oh hurray. NOT! Haven't communicated with anyone since this tragic event has happened. It just totally disheartened me in every way. The sense of despair crushes me.
Few days past and in the mail my mum received a mail from my school. It read that i did absolutely poor in the maths 3 unit exam. My mothers face was upset. I was speechless. She was so worried after seeing that letter. All i could think of right now is that if she is so worried right now what will happened once she see my report where it contains my poor results.
I weep everyday since last Friday and will continue to weep. I will keep telling myself that i'm the most useless person in the world that i shouldn't even exist. I have now realised after Half Yearlies how stressful the last year of school is. It can be quite devastating and sometimes you can be very selfish with your life.
I'm not sure how I'm going to rectify myself from here. I know at the end of this thread everyone will comment about how i should have better time management and organise myself better. Yes i know all this already. But it is just so hard. No words an explain how much pain and effort is needed to achieve your desired goals. My body can not operate after seeing such poor marks and disheartening advice. It just traumatises me and gives me 0 motivation.
Enjoy reading this story that i will remember forever in my life. For those who are also suffering as well you're not alone.
ps. i cried while typing this. I just needed to share and express my feelings and stories to everyone.
Chemistry: 32/75 not sure what even happened. Probs just dumb as fuck and can't handle chem. Oh forgot to mention ranked 20/25 (i laughed because i failed). I was utterly terrified because i haven't ranked that low since year 7. I used to be ranked 8th.
Mathematics: 39/70 not sure wtf happened here. Ranked 38/68. So pathetic because the funny thing is i ranked top 10 last year but no that shit doesn't count of course. This just had to hit when HSC starts.
Maths ext1: BAHAHAHA dis not even gud. 31%. ferk lyfe bro. Used to rank top 10 out of 30 people. Guess what my rank is now? 27/30
It's so sad how my teachers thought i was smart as. They had so much faith in me. Even my mum thought i was doing good after parent teacher interviews. Haven't even told her my results. Once school reports come out ohhhhh man i'm soooooo dead.
Funny thing is after the last day of school i was a bloody maniac. I even went up to the head maths teacher and said if you did bad in your half yearlies am i able to rectify my marks?
Teacher replies "Nope, never seen anyone do it and you probably won't be able to cope with 3 unit maths. You should consider dropping 3 unit maths"
It's the holidays, oh hurray. NOT! Haven't communicated with anyone since this tragic event has happened. It just totally disheartened me in every way. The sense of despair crushes me.
Few days past and in the mail my mum received a mail from my school. It read that i did absolutely poor in the maths 3 unit exam. My mothers face was upset. I was speechless. She was so worried after seeing that letter. All i could think of right now is that if she is so worried right now what will happened once she see my report where it contains my poor results.
I weep everyday since last Friday and will continue to weep. I will keep telling myself that i'm the most useless person in the world that i shouldn't even exist. I have now realised after Half Yearlies how stressful the last year of school is. It can be quite devastating and sometimes you can be very selfish with your life.
I'm not sure how I'm going to rectify myself from here. I know at the end of this thread everyone will comment about how i should have better time management and organise myself better. Yes i know all this already. But it is just so hard. No words an explain how much pain and effort is needed to achieve your desired goals. My body can not operate after seeing such poor marks and disheartening advice. It just traumatises me and gives me 0 motivation.
Enjoy reading this story that i will remember forever in my life. For those who are also suffering as well you're not alone.
ps. i cried while typing this. I just needed to share and express my feelings and stories to everyone.
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