Pierotte
Member
Funny when how you SHOULD feel about a person doesn't match up with how you DO feel.
Now I'm not saying there is a certain way that people should feel, but, well... ok to the point.
There's a guy at uni, I'm about 90% sure he likes me, 10% thinking that maybe he's just a really really nice person...
Like our history goes like this:
First week of uni on a daily basis he would buy me an iced tea. Like I'd be sitting somewhere and he'd walk up to me and go "peach or lemon" then chuck one over and sit and chat.
Then we were talking about music during one of these iced tea chats, and hes like "yeah i have 15 favourite songs" next day he had burnt me a cd of these songs.
Then he would do little things like come to my tutorial group (an hour after his) just because he felt like it
Then there were the "Im sorry if its out of line, but i really liked what u were wearing today" type text messages
Then it was ridiculous ammounts of text messages which were all "Hi, whatcha doing? Hows -insert subject- going? Wanna stay back this arvo and I'll help you out with it"
THEN it was "Ok, lets stay back this arvo and work on -insert subject- then we can grab some dinner" phonecalls
Then its random phonecalls "whatcha doing? nothing? Yeah wanna go do something"
Then theres things like i needed a copy of InDesign, so as soon as i said so he had gotten me a copy from his friend.
Then theres the random text messages/phone calls at 12:00 at night after ive just submitted a learning journal (you can see when people submit stuff) going "Oh, you subitted your journal in the wrong spot" or the next week about 1 min after id submitted it "AH congrats, put it in the right folder this time!"
Anyway, maybe im being full of my self, maybe he doesnt "like" me. Maybe hes just a really decent person...
So if someone was this nice to you wouldnt it be natural for you to like tham back an equal ammount?
Becuase i dont.
And i feel bad becuase i feel i should, and im not even nice to him, i dont return all his messages, i dont feel like talking to him on the phone, i dont get the urge to randomly call him or approach him and ask how his day has been...
Instead i find my self falling for a guy who I simply cant get along with.
Everytime he rings me it ends up with one of us hanging up pissed off
Everytime i see him we end up in an argument
Everytime he sends me a message i wont reply for days because.. well i dunno.
Ditto for everytime i send him one.
But last time he rung we seriously argued for a whole 2 hours before i finally gave in... who stays on the phone with someone for that long simply arguing!!??
Last time i saw him we spent the whole day together without getting bored.. but well with me getting really violent and pissed of and hurting him.
After each event we wont talk for a week.
Then someone will "give in."
Cept then he'll do little things like invite me to a cocktail party when its only going to be like him and 10 of his close friends.
Or ask if i want to keep him company while hes moving houses (like 5 mins away from me!)
Or just contact me to say he likes talking to me... then thats the end of that conversation.
I think we have this hostile thing going where we dont want to show that we like each other at all, or that we need to ever speak to each other...
But i think i do genuinely hate him just a little..
And i think in a way he hates me too
But its interesting, and as much as i hate him i like him.
In a way he's too much like me...
And i know that neither one of us is going to make the first move... becuase that would almost be like resigning and saying "Fine, you win. I like you and i have to make that clear, i cant wait for you to do so."
Its fucked up... but thats the way it is.
As if i wouldnt have feelings for the nice guy and just leave the raging ego maniac alone.
Maybe i dont like the nice one because he made it too easy... and i dont know WHY he likes me, like its too... NICE! He's only ever seen the nice side of me and me only the nice side of him.
I almost resent him for always being there...
But in the same way its lovely knowing someone is thinking about u.
But isnt that what u would want in a relationship? Someone who is easy to get along with?
Not someone who you fight with.
I dunno. This is so very year 6.
(damn, i was hoping by the time i was finished typing that I'd have it all sorted out in my head.. but alas that is not the case, so now i must hit submit and add to the L&R crap pile)
Now I'm not saying there is a certain way that people should feel, but, well... ok to the point.
There's a guy at uni, I'm about 90% sure he likes me, 10% thinking that maybe he's just a really really nice person...
Like our history goes like this:
First week of uni on a daily basis he would buy me an iced tea. Like I'd be sitting somewhere and he'd walk up to me and go "peach or lemon" then chuck one over and sit and chat.
Then we were talking about music during one of these iced tea chats, and hes like "yeah i have 15 favourite songs" next day he had burnt me a cd of these songs.
Then he would do little things like come to my tutorial group (an hour after his) just because he felt like it
Then there were the "Im sorry if its out of line, but i really liked what u were wearing today" type text messages
Then it was ridiculous ammounts of text messages which were all "Hi, whatcha doing? Hows -insert subject- going? Wanna stay back this arvo and I'll help you out with it"
THEN it was "Ok, lets stay back this arvo and work on -insert subject- then we can grab some dinner" phonecalls
Then its random phonecalls "whatcha doing? nothing? Yeah wanna go do something"
Then theres things like i needed a copy of InDesign, so as soon as i said so he had gotten me a copy from his friend.
Then theres the random text messages/phone calls at 12:00 at night after ive just submitted a learning journal (you can see when people submit stuff) going "Oh, you subitted your journal in the wrong spot" or the next week about 1 min after id submitted it "AH congrats, put it in the right folder this time!"
Anyway, maybe im being full of my self, maybe he doesnt "like" me. Maybe hes just a really decent person...
So if someone was this nice to you wouldnt it be natural for you to like tham back an equal ammount?
Becuase i dont.
And i feel bad becuase i feel i should, and im not even nice to him, i dont return all his messages, i dont feel like talking to him on the phone, i dont get the urge to randomly call him or approach him and ask how his day has been...
Instead i find my self falling for a guy who I simply cant get along with.
Everytime he rings me it ends up with one of us hanging up pissed off
Everytime i see him we end up in an argument
Everytime he sends me a message i wont reply for days because.. well i dunno.
Ditto for everytime i send him one.
But last time he rung we seriously argued for a whole 2 hours before i finally gave in... who stays on the phone with someone for that long simply arguing!!??
Last time i saw him we spent the whole day together without getting bored.. but well with me getting really violent and pissed of and hurting him.
After each event we wont talk for a week.
Then someone will "give in."
Cept then he'll do little things like invite me to a cocktail party when its only going to be like him and 10 of his close friends.
Or ask if i want to keep him company while hes moving houses (like 5 mins away from me!)
Or just contact me to say he likes talking to me... then thats the end of that conversation.
I think we have this hostile thing going where we dont want to show that we like each other at all, or that we need to ever speak to each other...
But i think i do genuinely hate him just a little..
And i think in a way he hates me too
But its interesting, and as much as i hate him i like him.
In a way he's too much like me...
And i know that neither one of us is going to make the first move... becuase that would almost be like resigning and saying "Fine, you win. I like you and i have to make that clear, i cant wait for you to do so."
Its fucked up... but thats the way it is.
As if i wouldnt have feelings for the nice guy and just leave the raging ego maniac alone.
Maybe i dont like the nice one because he made it too easy... and i dont know WHY he likes me, like its too... NICE! He's only ever seen the nice side of me and me only the nice side of him.
I almost resent him for always being there...
But in the same way its lovely knowing someone is thinking about u.
But isnt that what u would want in a relationship? Someone who is easy to get along with?
Not someone who you fight with.
I dunno. This is so very year 6.
(damn, i was hoping by the time i was finished typing that I'd have it all sorted out in my head.. but alas that is not the case, so now i must hit submit and add to the L&R crap pile)
